I have a very good friend once tell me to be free.

I think this line of encouragement is backboned with some words of experience and given in love for what they know i need to hear daily.

With this whole Haiti catastrophe, im reminded so much of how incredible this life is, and how in just a second it can end. Maybe a black and white way of looking at it, but i feel there is no gray area to approach it with. For life, as we know it, is not really in our control. We are not bound to a time-frame and likewise we cannot claim every moment we've yet to have.

This is something I've been learning harshly the last few weeks. This life is not my own. I feel new boldness and confidence because of this. I'm not living for myself, or for the appeal of others. For a very long time, too long for what it left me with, I had this problem where I would try and please others and meet them where they were at. Tending to their brokenness and carrying a burden that was also, not mine. Yes, I know that there is a balance and this is a huge part of my heart-serving the hearts of other people I cross paths with-but it is not a duty or something I will recieve an A+ on or what makes me who I am.

I am free to explore this journey ahead of me without the pull of fear or anxiety or stress or the unknowns or being rejected by people that have become a part of me. I am free to discover and more importantly, to change.